世上没有任何一样事情是完美的
有缺点 所以不完美
我有缺点 你有缺点 他也有缺点
不以为然
人类的缺点
有分大与小
小则无碍 大则有碍
小缺点 人家可能当你有性格
大缺点 往往会令人恨之入骨
懒惰 好玩“铁齿”放弃 没责任感
一人的无心伤害 另一人的看不开
一人的抗压失败 另一人的不了解
人类的缺点
好比数学里的负值
活在现实的生活中
当负值成与负值
不再等于是正值
人类种种的缺点
最终只有会酿成
两败俱伤的结局
Sunday, May 31, 2009
I was a finalist, again! Yes
On 30th June 2009, I dressed in a gray shirt and a pairs of black skinny jeans. There was a shoe painting competition at Queen’s Bay Mall and I was not losing this chance to get myself something for free!
It was a rainy day, so I have to struggle to keep myself as dry as possible with a AH-MAH style umbrella. Well, I am never a fan of cold. I went there alone as my brother has to prioritize her girl friend mah...
I reached Queen’s Bay Mall without much trouble. But one thing worth mentioning was my acquaintance with this Myanmar kid. He is standard 5 and he spoke a mouthful of fluent Malay. I thought he was a smart Indian child till I saw him speaking Malay to an Indian bus driver. It intrigued me. He came sitting beside this big Chinese brother and start asking-“you mao pergi mana?” Then we start chatting right away.
From the short conversation, I knew him as a Malaysia-born Myanmar child. His father was dead because of tibi (and he has no idea what kind of disease is that, guess there was no point explaining…) He probably get his independent character from his single parent family. I kind of pitied him because God has given him a harder level to start this life game. Somehow, if he were to be blessed with an excellent family brought up, I am sure that he will excel better than the others who were born into better background.
This whole heard-touching thingy stopped as the bus reached the mall. I headed for the competition and he headed for his online game at a cyber café somewhere in Penang.
The competition started at 1pm and the contestants were given 3 hours to finish their master piece. However, the time frame was not enough for me, as I sat there thinking…looking at others for the first 30 minutes. Plus, another 30 minutes was gone when I slugged to lower ground floor to buy myself something to savor.
After realizing there is not much time left, I rushed to finish the painting. As I feel that I did not come out with creative and shocking ideas, I decided to impress the judges through fine craftsmanship. However, I was not really satisfied with my work. It was half-way through indeed! I regretted fooling around earlier…if I were to be given another 30 minutes…I would…
Anyway, I was thrilled when I still managed to get myself into the 17 finalists. If I were to fail, then it would be very embarrassing! The money plus time wasted…Let’s see, RM 4 for bus from Sg. Petani to Butterworth, RM 1.50 for another bus from Penang Jetty to Queen’s Bay Mall, RM 3.50 for Auntie Amy’s, RM 59++ for Sushi, RM 1 for papaya as dinner, RM ??.?? for my bro’s petrol, and RM∞ for the induced-dead brain cells…Uh!
Given my semi-finished work, it was quite a competition. I didn’t realize there were some 30+ people taking part into this competition. Most contestants in group B-open category were from design schools because they brought their college bags and based on their features-earrings, hairstyle and fashion. At the first place, I was intimidated by one guy with his so-called complete sets of brush and colors. Yet, he did not get the evil grin I had. Haha!
OK!OK!OK! I am nothing but an ordinary day-dreaming stupid guy, I admitted it! There would be zero difference if I lose.
It was a rainy day, so I have to struggle to keep myself as dry as possible with a AH-MAH style umbrella. Well, I am never a fan of cold. I went there alone as my brother has to prioritize her girl friend mah...
I reached Queen’s Bay Mall without much trouble. But one thing worth mentioning was my acquaintance with this Myanmar kid. He is standard 5 and he spoke a mouthful of fluent Malay. I thought he was a smart Indian child till I saw him speaking Malay to an Indian bus driver. It intrigued me. He came sitting beside this big Chinese brother and start asking-“you mao pergi mana?” Then we start chatting right away.
From the short conversation, I knew him as a Malaysia-born Myanmar child. His father was dead because of tibi (and he has no idea what kind of disease is that, guess there was no point explaining…) He probably get his independent character from his single parent family. I kind of pitied him because God has given him a harder level to start this life game. Somehow, if he were to be blessed with an excellent family brought up, I am sure that he will excel better than the others who were born into better background.
This whole heard-touching thingy stopped as the bus reached the mall. I headed for the competition and he headed for his online game at a cyber café somewhere in Penang.
The competition started at 1pm and the contestants were given 3 hours to finish their master piece. However, the time frame was not enough for me, as I sat there thinking…looking at others for the first 30 minutes. Plus, another 30 minutes was gone when I slugged to lower ground floor to buy myself something to savor.
After realizing there is not much time left, I rushed to finish the painting. As I feel that I did not come out with creative and shocking ideas, I decided to impress the judges through fine craftsmanship. However, I was not really satisfied with my work. It was half-way through indeed! I regretted fooling around earlier…if I were to be given another 30 minutes…I would…
Anyway, I was thrilled when I still managed to get myself into the 17 finalists. If I were to fail, then it would be very embarrassing! The money plus time wasted…Let’s see, RM 4 for bus from Sg. Petani to Butterworth, RM 1.50 for another bus from Penang Jetty to Queen’s Bay Mall, RM 3.50 for Auntie Amy’s, RM 59++ for Sushi, RM 1 for papaya as dinner, RM ??.?? for my bro’s petrol, and RM∞ for the induced-dead brain cells…Uh!
Given my semi-finished work, it was quite a competition. I didn’t realize there were some 30+ people taking part into this competition. Most contestants in group B-open category were from design schools because they brought their college bags and based on their features-earrings, hairstyle and fashion. At the first place, I was intimidated by one guy with his so-called complete sets of brush and colors. Yet, he did not get the evil grin I had. Haha!
OK!OK!OK! I am nothing but an ordinary day-dreaming stupid guy, I admitted it! There would be zero difference if I lose.
星空
以前小小的时候，几乎天天晚上都有“行街街”的习惯（哈，想不到小时的我竟然是那么幸福！）。到外面去走走时，我都会望望一下那片辽阔的天空。
那时的我才大概有四五岁酱。。。距离现在已经要二十一的我（哎，老了。。。哈！）
黑漆漆的天空，就好像一条黑色的被单；而大小不一的星星就好像闪亮亮的金粉，点润着那片单调的黑色被单。它犹如一幅浪漫的图画！
到底是谁制造了这片人人都能享受的星空呢？The Greater One？耶稣？阿拉？玉皇大帝？这我真的不懂！而我深信回答这问题的能力也不在郑国培的范围以内！
人类，真的很渺小！比起地球、宇宙、整个银河系。。。小到好像鬼酱子！
有时候当生活上出了什么问题，真的别为了那些看不起眼的小小细节，而闹得“六国大封相”、“靠父靠母”地！有的少男少女说什么为情自杀？你要去死的话，就请便吧！反正死掉就不用跟大家一同争氧气啦！谢谢哦！
其实我酱子是针对那些没事找事来搞的懒叫人！在写这篇之前，我家外一百米有一班人印度人在惹是生非、打来打去！我很想前进五十米去看看谁会被送进棺材里，但却被可爱的妈妈阻止了！（你看我有多幸福！）
哎，我亲爱的黑皮先生们，你们好像很有空酱哦！有工不去做？去学香港电影里的帅哥进黑社会打人？（还有那些为了地位而什么懒叫话都能够讲出来的种族英雄和在办公室里搞三搞四的老几百们！）
无知的朋友，我可怜你们！因为无知，你们的生活将充满了无数的战争与嫉妒！不知你们懂不懂？在你们打人与煽动那些无中生有的是非，同时也有人为了生活与家人，拼命在夜间赶工？为了梦想，每时每刻地默默耕耘？为了继续活下去，不停用力地去呼吸着每一口气？
我会讲人，但其实我自己也是一个无知人物！人，不是完美的生物。或许不完美，才是所谓的完美？
才管他呢！现在的我，只想安安静静地，和其他与我有同feel的众生，一同享受着这片奇妙的星空！
众生？？？阿尼托佛！哈利洛亚！哈哈哈哈！
那时的我才大概有四五岁酱。。。距离现在已经要二十一的我（哎，老了。。。哈！）
黑漆漆的天空，就好像一条黑色的被单；而大小不一的星星就好像闪亮亮的金粉，点润着那片单调的黑色被单。它犹如一幅浪漫的图画！
到底是谁制造了这片人人都能享受的星空呢？The Greater One？耶稣？阿拉？玉皇大帝？这我真的不懂！而我深信回答这问题的能力也不在郑国培的范围以内！
人类，真的很渺小！比起地球、宇宙、整个银河系。。。小到好像鬼酱子！
有时候当生活上出了什么问题，真的别为了那些看不起眼的小小细节，而闹得“六国大封相”、“靠父靠母”地！有的少男少女说什么为情自杀？你要去死的话，就请便吧！反正死掉就不用跟大家一同争氧气啦！谢谢哦！
其实我酱子是针对那些没事找事来搞的懒叫人！在写这篇之前，我家外一百米有一班人印度人在惹是生非、打来打去！我很想前进五十米去看看谁会被送进棺材里，但却被可爱的妈妈阻止了！（你看我有多幸福！）
哎，我亲爱的黑皮先生们，你们好像很有空酱哦！有工不去做？去学香港电影里的帅哥进黑社会打人？（还有那些为了地位而什么懒叫话都能够讲出来的种族英雄和在办公室里搞三搞四的老几百们！）
无知的朋友，我可怜你们！因为无知，你们的生活将充满了无数的战争与嫉妒！不知你们懂不懂？在你们打人与煽动那些无中生有的是非，同时也有人为了生活与家人，拼命在夜间赶工？为了梦想，每时每刻地默默耕耘？为了继续活下去，不停用力地去呼吸着每一口气？
我会讲人，但其实我自己也是一个无知人物！人，不是完美的生物。或许不完美，才是所谓的完美？
才管他呢！现在的我，只想安安静静地，和其他与我有同feel的众生，一同享受着这片奇妙的星空！
众生？？？阿尼托佛！哈利洛亚！哈哈哈哈！
Saturday, May 16, 2009
在考pengurusan emosi前。。。在收拾房间中途
一年快要过去了，我也要跟我呆了十一个月的E411说再见了。这时我心情很毛顿。我很期待第二年来个新的开始，再加把劲去自我充实，追求象牙塔内外的美好风景；但同时却有点伤感，因为当时间过去是，一切都只能收在大脑内，被时间慢慢的冲淡那种大学第一年的回忆。所以我在去年还没进大学已经买了canon ixus 70来留住一点一滴，叫电脑帮忙我extend一下我的MB！
今天早上因为考试，所以没能跟可爱的room mate说再见。人走了，原本半间房的冰味（他叫伟冰）如今换来了寂寞。平时没常常讲话（一天有十句吧），现在还很想念他的冷酷。有时我们会很diam，有时会很sampat! 伟冰是个很可爱的人，读书会读出声音来、很爱玩DoTA、很爱打篮球、也很爱睡！外表看起来很乖是不是？认识他你就知道了！有时打篮球打倒夜了，回到房的时候满身臭汗味，心情漂亮的话就会爆出一句“老婆，我回来了，要不要抱抱？”我呸！等下我就拿你的身体来练习我的“葵花神功”！我们曾经谈过爱情观、性事、家里的事、朋友等！他还不相信我爱男人呢, 哈！这些日子来，幸亏我们没什么冲突！好像睡觉时，我们随便一个先睡，另外一个就会自动去关灯。我听歌时，会问问他是否有没有吵到他类似地。懂他喜欢礼物这一类的东西，但却忘记买给他，因为second semester真的很少出外逛街去。（还好他也没送我什么啦！）
在国民大学内，我被一些自以为是的senior玩过骂过、不考试跑去日本玩、抹杀睡眠时间来忙那些懒叫活动、为了存merit而去代表宿舍跳远（最后第二，真瞎虽）、每天下午去跑步来减肥、到处吗粗口、弄senior生气、沉迷DoTA、穿短裤进fac等。大学教授，形形色色！有很负责任的、有很猫的、有本土味的、也有外国风味的，还有些会把tutorial当成泄露考题的好时刻（我爱这类的教授）。有一只靠念slideshow来讲课的马教授讲我涂指甲油，好像要扮女生酱。Tolonglah！不要酱outdate好不好？不是跟你好好讲是fashion了嘛，它却回你一句if you wanna do, please, not in my class！安娣，什么叫open-minded? I thought y’all people encourage us to be creative and innovative? Look what happens now?
在众多的events中，最重要的就是认识了三个好友，成了四人组！吃饭逛街都是四个。认识这些人是我的荣幸；有什么难关，都会有子贤来帮我分担；down的时候可以找simpson，因为一看他的样子你就会笑；谈心事与装帅弄头发就找文标。谈性事，三个三个都可以！
写写到一半，刚才子贤来找我借相机拍照，才知道原来那个每天complain宿舍烂的高级人也有所同感！一班好友每天一同吃饭、冲凉时玩偷拍、脱裤子、喜欢喜欢就进来房间捣乱之类的事，都只能在first year时享受得到！第二年大家都搬到外面租贵房子住了，见面的机会也自然会少了许多！但是读书时间可能会因而增加！所以numbers of friends is inversely proportional to studying time。可能酱子大家second year能够进dean list也不一定呢？
我明年的房间虽然会小了点，但是一定为你们几个而开！哈哈
房间的藏宝还没收拾好呢，明天还有一科机百pengurusan emosi！考考我们记不记得老佛爷在世时说过什么惊天动地的statement。还有大脑内的什么鬼地方trigger一个人的anger或joy。给一个medic drop-out 青菜青菜酱教3个credit hour的科目，国大的VC，你也很好料一下！真的搞不懂你是要test我们，还是全世界已经没有一些比较eligible的讲师？UKM已在top 200以外了，请你在接下来的日子再三思考！多两天就要告别我的first year了，下一站会有什么东西等着我呢？敬请期待！
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
聚会讲究CHANNEL?
每新的一年，除了可以尽情买新衣外，更可以很好意思的跑去跟人拿红包钱！同时，也会有一年一度的聚会。跟同一个channel的老朋友聚会是件令我很期待的事，因为这时大家又可以“乱来”一番。相反的，跟不同channel的朋友聚会却是一件不是酱舒服的件事了！
这次的新年，就给一位不同channel之同班友人邀去她家聚一聚会酱。大家虽然曾经同窗两年啦，但也不算是很熟咯！正所谓“人以群分，物以类聚”。中四中五时的生涯就是参着自己同样channel的人。一有空时，比如没有代课老师来代课，大家就会很自动地进行“分组讨论”！唯一可让大班绑在一起的是中四中五的那个可爱的“唱爱国歌”表演。那时可见整班44人会比较团结地唱完一首很好听的爱国歌，然后很团结的去搞庆祝，接着隔天就打回原形了。哈！可见我班的人都很会“见状行事”哦！
话说回来，其他被通知的同班朋友都去了这位友人的家。其实本来自己也不是很想去的，毕竟都不同channel的，来来去去就是问那种千年不变的问题：你读那里啊？好吗？然后就会出现冷场的状况。为了避免持续冷场，大家都会找回他日的“组员”来开会。
嗨，我想既然是酱的聚会，去不去都不用紧啦！何苦呢？
我想每次出来大家都纯粹想看看你、我、他变成什么鬼样子，然后就争取宝贵时间来跟自己的组员讲个天花龙凤。有多余时间的话就赌赌搏，搞一搞气氛酱。
我原本就是抱着这种念头去参加聚会的，但是回想一下又好像很negative！大家出来不就是要看看你、我、他，然后跟进一下彼此的状况、联络感情。有机会当然是跟同channel的朋友粘在一起讲个够啦！
聚会当儿有其他不同channel的同班朋友晚了才加入。虽然我在对面座位，但我却没向她们打招呼、也没去跟她们打个眼神。整个聚会，跟她们的对话只是区区的ByeBye，就回家了。后来还是觉得怪怪地，想了想，才轻菜写写blog了。
其实人啊，总都要学习自动！不管同不同channel，即然没人say Hallo，自己开嘴巴say个Hallo也不难吧！明明就是你懂我，我懂你，没打招呼就好像给人一种很陌生的感觉！这总比面对下来的尴尬场面来得好很多！你说对不对？
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